Some thinking

Sometimes I think that people kind of talk about what they want from life, rather than going out and getting it. I do that a lot. I always think about how lovely it would be to have loads of friends and be so busy that I don't have one free day to myself, but then that I'd be able to take a day off if I wanted, cos I also love alone time. But, when it comes down to it, I am too awkward to make heaps and heaps of friends (although when I do, I do it good)
But, as for everything else. Sometimes I feel that people should stop thinking about life, and just live it. It's not going to come to you if you're sitting in front of a computer and I do realise that I'm being slightly hypocritical here cos I do it all the time. But! It's all about choice. Everything is. I can decide to wallow in whatever I'm feeling that day, or go out and meet people. I can study or not study and therefore pass or fail a class. I can let myself like someone or not, I can open my mind or not. Everything is a choice.

I've decided that if I don't have a good excuse for not doing something, then I'm just going to do it. Cos it's so easy to just sit in my room and watch movies by myself, but I don't want to wake up in 20 years and wonder where my life has gone. I want to live, experience life and all it's joys and sadness. I want to love someone, I want to be successful in my future career. I have all these dreams, but none of them are going to come true if I don't act.

I think this may have been a bit of a epiphany.

Sorry for boring you all. tl;dr i'm going to get off my ass and LIVE

New starts

I've been in Dundee almost a week now, and I adore it. It feels like I've lived here for years, I already know my way around the main part of town, I live right in the centre in a beautiful apartment that I will gush about for ages. It's called Victoria Chambers (I'm even in love with the name), and each apartment takes up an entire floor of two buildings. As in, whatever dividing wall there was between numbers 12 and 14 is no longer there. There are 15 bedrooms, loads of bathrooms, two kitchens and a common room. My room is really big, and the window is just amazing. As is my view. This is basically my perfect apartment.

Anyway! Since coming over here, I've met 8 other Irish people, 3 from Dundalk, 3 from Dublin, a girl from Donegal/New York and a boy from Mayo. 2 of those 8 are in my course, starting in my year! So, we will be BFFs haha.

I was supposed to go to a concert tonight, Amanda Palmer, in London. I was really looking forward to going, but when I tried to book the train ticket, the ATM wouldn't let me take the full amount out of my account. So I took that as a sign that it's way too expensive. And here I am, looking out my beautiful window at my beautiful view and I am contented despite that.
With the money I would have spent, I bought myself plates and cups and teatowels and food and other such domestic things. I also bought myself a new phone, it's swanky and I love it.

I don't think there is much about this trip that I haven't just loved, and I hope it stays that way.
I've been writing letters also, to my mum and my sister and my mum's friend and some of my friends. Anyone else who wants one, send me an IM or something!

What else...I don't start classes until Monday week so I can't dish any gossip about the lecturers or anything like that, I'm sure they're all lovely anyway.

I think that's really it all. I've found this library that is super close to me, I will live there I think, whenever I can bear to be away from my bedroom.

I think I've just said everything that is important and quite a few things that aren't.
So, I hope you are all well! <3

My amazing window.


Gorgeous left side view

My sink, cos I love it and I'm crazy like that

Another view <3 This is what I see when I look straight outside

Moving away, leaving home, severing ties

As I mentioned in the previous journal, I am leaving for Dundee on the 7th of September. Which you may have noticed is 3 days from the date of this journal.
I am really excited, I can not even express my excitement. I am so excited that people looking at me would think I am completely indifferent to the whole thing. Whenever I think about it, my brain threatens to explode, but instead it just goes blank. Which is a little awkward when I'm supposed to be doing something. Like packing. You know.

Anyway. I keep getting the feeling that I'm missing something HUGE. But, realistically, there's nothing too massive that I can be missing. I have accommodation and a little bit of money to keep me going. There's nothing really else that I can't buy or have sent over, so I know I am worrying about nothing.

On a completely related note, I had to say goodbye to my two best friends today. They both came over for a chat and we had coffee and it was lovely. Until they had to leave. If I wasn't such a cold-hearted bitch (lol not really), I would have cried. As it was, I hugged both of them really hard, which was a bit weird, cos we don't do hugs but anyway. I think that was the down point of this whole thing.

To prevent my brain from completely frying, I've been reading. Harry Potter to be exact. I don't think I've ever enjoyed reading the books as much as I did this time around, but it was the first time I've read them all one after the other. Unfortunately, it took me very little time. (PS I don't like the ending of the last book. seriously, JK, wtf)

In other news, Big Brother 10 is FINALLY over, Sophie won, blah blah, I never watched it, but it happened to be on tonight. What a ditz. Also, I don't know what was up with Davina's outfit, a warning should have come with it.

Well, enough of my tired ramblings, next time I update I will most likely be the resident of another country! :D x