Some thinking

Sometimes I think that people kind of talk about what they want from life, rather than going out and getting it. I do that a lot. I always think about how lovely it would be to have loads of friends and be so busy that I don't have one free day to myself, but then that I'd be able to take a day off if I wanted, cos I also love alone time. But, when it comes down to it, I am too awkward to make heaps and heaps of friends (although when I do, I do it good)
But, as for everything else. Sometimes I feel that people should stop thinking about life, and just live it. It's not going to come to you if you're sitting in front of a computer and I do realise that I'm being slightly hypocritical here cos I do it all the time. But! It's all about choice. Everything is. I can decide to wallow in whatever I'm feeling that day, or go out and meet people. I can study or not study and therefore pass or fail a class. I can let myself like someone or not, I can open my mind or not. Everything is a choice.

I've decided that if I don't have a good excuse for not doing something, then I'm just going to do it. Cos it's so easy to just sit in my room and watch movies by myself, but I don't want to wake up in 20 years and wonder where my life has gone. I want to live, experience life and all it's joys and sadness. I want to love someone, I want to be successful in my future career. I have all these dreams, but none of them are going to come true if I don't act.

I think this may have been a bit of a epiphany.

Sorry for boring you all. tl;dr i'm going to get off my ass and LIVE